I miss this

I miss having a guy that I can tell everything to. Like the other day, I went fishing for the first time in my life and I didn't have a boyfriend to tell it to. I was so tempted to tell an ex about it because he would be so impressed. But at the same time, I didn't want to bother him. I didn't want to make him think about me unnecessarily. But I know he would be proud and that he would have never expected it of me.
So it got me thinking, that if I am not careful I will end up with a boyfriend just so that I will have someone to tell things to late at night. So that at 10pm I can go to bed and talk to him for a half hour about everything that is happening in my life. Because that right there is what I miss the most. Lying in his arms and telling him about my day. About my life. About my past. Things that I have never told anyone before. I miss that.

Society Says

This is something that I have been thinking about lately. Sometimes it seems like everything would just be easier if I would just go along with what society seems to want and find myself a boyfriend. A few weeks ago, when I was kissing Jack, I thought, it would just be easier if I went along with it. It wasn't something that I wanted, but if I just agreed with him, it would have made him happier and would have made the entire situation less awkward.
Everything that I know seems to be telling me one thing: get a boyfriend. But what if a boyfriend is the last thing that I want?